growing our family

My husband currently works at the local University. Last month he stopped in the Women's Health Center and talked to them about pregnant women who are looking for alternatives to abortion. He left his name and number and got information on the local adopting agencies they use. I love him for so many reasons and he is golden in my mind for being proactive on growing our family. For as long as I can remember I have wanted to adopt, I just have this heart for kids in general. We just figured we would have ours first and then adopt later. However, it is clear that we are not in control. God has continued to open doors for us in the adopting arena. We are currently starting our home study and although that can be very evasive, I'm looking forward to it. I am never going to give up hope that we can procreate, I honestly believe we will, it just doesn't seem like it will happen right now.

Our Journey

In 2005, my husband and I were happily married. After a year of trying, we went through the usual tests and it came back that we had motility and mobility problems. Our doctor told us we had a 1% chance of ever getting pregnant. Over the next year we went through 3 unsuccessful IUI's. We decided emotionally we needed a break and a month later found out my husband would be deployed for 12-15 months. Right away we got on a waiting list for IVF. We wanted to make sure once he got home safely, we would continue to pursue our dreams of having a family. So this year in 2010, I went through my first cycle of IVF, and let me tell you it was an emotional roller coaster. And after being unsuccessful, we decided right away we would jump on the bandwagon and try again. We did, in May, and again had the same result. Now after an empty bank account and nothing to show for it, we continue to pray that something good will come out of these experiences. We haven't given up hope, just not as confident as we once were.